Where'd you go?

Happiness. I’m trying to find you left to right, up and down. But..where are you? I used to have you in the palm of my hands and I promised I would never let you go but, you slipped away like the sand running through my fingers. I try to grasp you by the finger tips but life just won’t let me. I once had you. I once owned you. But you ran away like a scared rabbit being chased by a human being… if that made sense. When I had you, you brought so many great things in my life and made the bad ones go away. I try to find you but your hiding from me. Maybe your hiding till the day that I deserve to be happy but I need you now. Now more than ever because everything around me is bringing me down. I try to find you through love but you weren’t fully there. I try to find you through friendship and you only showed up half the time, and now, you’re gone…again. Happiness. Tell me where are you?